Truth Has A Way

It has been almost three months since I have become a wife but it felt like I was in a marriage of two years.  Not that I felt older it just we have been through a lot together in just two and half month and most importantly we are truthful, understand, being considerate, tolerate and respect each other.  Of course the based of the marriage should be only to build a marriage that will please Allah and His Messenger as Habib Ali Al-Joofre has advice.

Ironic enough since he is my stranger even on the akad’s day and I just saw my husband face for the second time during the nikah’s day! If there is anything I want to express  my gratitude to Allah for this blessing,  Alhamdulillah. I remembered during the periods before the actual walimah I’m full of hesitance but I tried  my best to  surrendered fully myself to His Will and relied only to Him. I haven’t been test with the usual test of the bride to be. I mean I have  a blank less  of expression and emotionless. Numb in the souls to the extent I’m so uncertain with what I want to proceed in my further steps during the engagement periods.

I remembered too, I have been flipping through Said Nursi’s and Imam Ghazali’s books  during my engagement periods to find the answers of my uncertain feelings and Alhamdulillah all the doubts has faded when I firmly believe in the meaning of tawakkal. Tawakkal of course should be applied with knowledge together with an up most effort to up hold it in the right way.

Imam Ghazali wrote in his book Ihya Ulumuddin in Chapter V the meaning of Tawakkal and its benefits in one’s life.

Tawakkal- or God reliance is a stage of religion and a state of progress of the believers. Rather it is the highest state of those who are near God. The knowledge about God reliance is very subtle and the cause of it is that if one looks at the causes and ingredients of an action, he sets up partnership with God. In other words, if a man believes that anything has got power over the actions of a man, he ain’t be counted as a true monotheist. On the other hand, if the intermediary causes are deducted, it is casting aspersion on the Prophet’s ways and dishonor on Shariah. If one disbelieves the causes of an action there is misuse of intellect and as such one is drowned in the abyss of ignorance. So the real meaning of God-reliance is every subtle. The meaning of God reliance is intellect Shariah and Tauhid, the intermingling of three elements in a proportionate manner.

Now that I remembered I didn’t officially send my regards and gratitude to all my fellows brothers and sisters in Islam, colleagues, relatives, Turkish friends who spend their times to attend our walimah. Thanks also for all the prayer’s given to us from  all my sisters and bothers via sms, blogs or any kind of method of message. May Allah reward the best for all of you.

On the side note, I would love to ask if there is any sisters who would like to see the weddings pictures of us to let me know your email address or anyone who attend my wedding’s day who might want their picture to be send to them. No, I’m not photogenic and it’s not that it important but if you have attend the weddings but didn’t received the pictures yet, I will later forward the pictures since I  just got the formal photos from the photographer.

In addition please do send me the email’s for my beloved sisters who want to share my private entries related to marriage and woman’s affairs. Woman’s club. I will give the secret code through the email, inshAllah and if you didn’t want your email to be visible here, you can send it to the email: salmanamiruddin@gmail.com. Actually it is joint account but 99.9% is mine so please feel free to send the email.

I just want to humbly note and hope that any sisters who might later have my weddings pictures to keep it privacy from general viewing. Thanks in advance and May Allah bless all of us with a blissful marriage. Ameen.

My side’s hantaran. We make it as simple as we can. It’s has been decorated by my cousin who used her previous trays to save all the hassles. She is creative indeed and bought the fresh flowers in one of the cheapest flowers shop in Chow Kit early at the morning on my nikah’s day. Thanks to her. I definitely loved her decoration. I wouldn’t want to spend thousand ringgit just for the hantaran. It is not in the Sunnah or even not necessary things to do. Oh, by the way take a look at the ‘bahulu’ with the fish shape, ‘kuih -I forgot the name-  in beautiful roses shapes and the ‘buah pala’ in bunches of grapes decoration. I’m surprised on how my grandmother manage to find a very unique shapes to present the traditional  kuih.

I would like to take this opportunity to wish my beloved sisters, Nor Azma, Fatin Zawani and Ismah along with their husbands a prayer that has been propose by the Sunnah:-

” BarakAllahlulak Wa BarakAllahu’alaik Wajam’abainakuma Bil Khair”.

Jika belajar bidang perubatan lebih dari sekadar payah. Menjadi pengamal perubatan yang ikhlas dan dan sabar perlu dibayar dengan harga sebuah mujahadah. Terakhir Di Ortopedik

Bulan ini merupakan bulan terakhir saya di Jabatan Ortopedik. Bila di kenang-kenangkan, pengalaman selama 4 bulan berhadapan dengan pelumba haram tidak bertauliah (baca:mat rempit) hinggalah merawat seorang kanak-kanak yang hancur beberapa puntung jarinya beberapa hari sebelum hari raya Aidilfitri baru-baru ini, merupakan satu pengalaman yang sukar untuk di lupakan. Benar, tanpa kesabaran (atau memaksa diri untuk sabar sebagaimana yang selalu saya amalkan), posting ini seumpama satu tempoh membuang masa sia-sia, merawat orang yang tidak pernah reti menilai nikmat anggota tubuh badan yang dikurniakan Tuhan kepada mereka. Bak kata kawan-kawan saya:

“Kita yang lebih sayang mereka lebih dari diri mereka sendiri”,

Sehingga seakan sudah menjadi rutin dikalangan kami untuk berceramah dan berleter kepada mat-mat rempit sebelum memberi rawatan kepada mereka.

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Hari ini seorang sahabat bekas teman sebilik saya di kampus UIA suatu masa dahulu mengirim sms kepada saya. Oh, memang sungguh nostalgik pengalaman dengannya. Dialah teman berdebat saya yang mengenali saya lebih dari saya kenal diri sendiri. Teman suka duka segala.

Karakter dan personalitinya sungguh unik  yang tidak pernah saya temui seumur hidup saya. Teman dari seberang, Indonesia. Mindanya semua isu akan menjadi kritikal terutamanya tentang ideologi, peradaban atau tamadun.

Beliau memang sungguh kritikal namun sungguh menyenangkan. Tidak pernah menyangka beliau akan berkahwin dahulu.  Sebuah entri yang pernah di tulis lama dahulu. Sebuah nostalgia yang mengajar pelbagai perkara. Beliau pernah merentas tanah Syam sebagai seorang musafir ilmu. Dalam perbezaan kami berkongsi banyak persamaan.  Semuanya bermula dengan sebuah kisah jejak-jejak di bumi Nabi. Di situ cerita kami bermula. Dia di Urdun dan saya di Mesir. Sebuah perbezaan bisa mencantum dua hasrat yang sama. Keakraban yang luarbiasa. Andai berlapang dada dan saling beradab dan menerima akal budaya.

Entri 2006
 

I- Urdun
 

Memetik bunga ” Juri” di halaman Urdun

Seperti biasa, setelah tiba musim bunga tiga siswi nakal membuat perancangan.Seakan-akan kelihatan ‘tanduk’ di kepala mereka bertiga. Mari kita ke Amman. Musim bunga dah tiba. Ketiga-tiganya tersenyum nakal. Mereka bertiga yang terkenal dengan kejaguhan memetik bunga menuju ke Amman. Dari Mafraq yang dipenuhi sahra’ mereka menapak penuh keazaman. Mahu memetik “juri” di halaman jameah (Universiti) Urdun. Sambil menaiki bas berbekal “shantoh” besar dan gunting mereka menuju Amman.

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